It’s been almost three years since Heath Ledger was found dead in a lower Manhattan apartment.

It took a bit of mourning on the part of every woman on the planet to get over his death, but we’ve gotten through it.  There’s one woman however that may still be deep in mourning.

Thanks to some diary excerpts acquired by, we now know a little more about his death.  The diary isn’t his, it’s Lindsay Lohan’s, and apparently the two were a pretty serious item when Ledger died.

Yes. Lindsay Lohan got to be lovey-dovey with Heath Ledger.  If you didn’t hate her before, feel free to start now.

In the never-meant-to-be-public journal, the actress writes, “Today Heath died.”  The then 22-year old Lohan continued, “I’m in love with him…. He was the love of my life. He taught me so much, and he was everything I’ve ever wanted and more. I want to hear him laugh and hold me. I crave his touch and care.”

At the time of his death Lindsay was actually planning a trip to New York to visit the The Dark Knight star.

Ever resourceful, the gossip site even has a phone conversation between LiLo’s parents where Dina tells Michael Lohan that their daughter was “dating Heath when he died.”

See, maybe all this thievery, partying and substance abuse is just Lohan’s way of mourning.  Oh right, she did that before.  Oh well.  I’m still jealous.

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