Exclusive: Inside NYPD 'Rape Cops' Jury Room

NEW YORK (CBS 2) -- Call them confessions from behind closed doors.

We're finally hearing the answer to that question New Yorkers have been asking for months: how did 12 people acquit a pair of NYPD cops of rape?

In a CBS 2 exclusive, juror No. 8, took reporter Derricke Dennis inside the deliberations.

"We all felt they were guilty, but couldn't prove it. I wanted to tell a much fuller story," the juror said.

Juror No. 8 in the rape trial of two cops was New York freelance writer Patrick Kirkland. He has authored the first written account of every behind-the-scenes, twist and turn in the case.

"How did we get there, what were we thinking, what actually happened," Kirkland said.

His e-book called "Confessions of a Rape Cop Juror" has just been released, and said despite public outcry against officers Kenneth Moreno and Franklin Mata, nine of the 12 jurors put aside their personal beliefs and pegged them as not guilty from the start.

"I think it was the right vote," Kirkland said.

The 70-page e-book goes into detail over the most controversial parts of the case, including surveillance video showing the officers going in and out of the woman's apartment.

"I think for a lot of jury members it didn't sit well. I mean it was very... the officers either way should not be going back inside an apartment over and over again," Kirkland said.

There was the taped confrontation and confession between Moreno and the accuser, in which she got him to say twice on a wire that he penetrated her.

"I also tried to count the number of times that he denied it, and it ended up being somewhere between 25 and 30 times of denying it," Kirkland said.

Add to that the lack of DNA evidence and the woman's limited memory, and Kirkland says there was enough reasonable doubt for a not guilty verdict.

"I can sleep at night," Kirkland said. "If they're guilty, there's really only one person in the world that knows it."

Moreno, he said, though a meeting between the two after the verdict, led to a hug.

"The arms tightened, and then the high-pitched, soft spoken voice I had recognized from the witness stand whispered, 'Thank you,'" Kirkland said, reading from his book.

It is one excerpt from a book that still questions whether they were guilty or not.

"In reality, there's just no way to know," Kirkland said.

Kirkland's e-book is selling for $1.99, but he said that money is going to the publisher. He got a flat fee as a freelancer. He said he just wanted to tell the story.

Please offer your thoughts in the comments section below.