NEW YORK (CBSNewYork) — Even though officials say the worst may be over, hospitals are continuing the fight against coronavirus.

Weeks of long hours witnessing death and sickness are taking a toll.

CBS2’s Aundrea Cline-Thomas takes a look at the impact on those on the front lines.

“I’ve never taken so much time crying in the shower. I’ve never taken so much time scrubbing and seeing … did I get the back of my neck? What if it splashed?” said Dr. Julie John.


John was trained for the long hours in the Intensive Care Unit caring for the sickest COVID-19 patients. What she wasn’t prepared for was the emotional toll, especially when she tested positive for the coronavirus.

“When the diagnosis came I cried and I cried and I cried,” she said. “I was so scared I made a video saying goodbye to my children just in case that happened because that is our reality.”

She’s hardly alone. Hospitals across our region have dealt with the overwhelming volume of patients. Medical professionals face the threat the virus poses to their own safety, and they witness how COVID-19 shows no mercy to some while sparing others.

“It’s crazy. The stress that it places on the respiratory therapists. The stress that it places on the institutions, on the other departments, it’s alarming,” said respiratory therapist Daniel Bellevue.

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“Another thing that’s hard for me to deal with is I’m away from my family. I have three children and I haven’t been near them as well. That’s by choice. I don’t want to bring anything home, God forbid,” said ER physician Dr. Ernest Patti.

They’re hardly complaints. These professionals show up for the uncertainty of every shift.

David Reich, president of Mount Sinai Hospital, is concerned about the long-term impact.

“I think there will be after effects of that. You look at the number of people who will be lost in this nation and it will be more than Vietnam,” he said.

This war is one Dr. John wants to return to, after feeling guilty for being sidelined by the virus.

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“I will be going back to the front line. I have a moral and ethical obligation to my profession,” she said.

But she’ll return with anxiety, knowing her white coat and scrubs don’t mask her humanity, as she fights for her patients to have the same outcome she’s had.

Comments (20)
  1. garmer says:

    Doctors are not ones to be humble its a terrible pill to swallow.

  2. Xian Liu says:

    Who made this lady a doctor? Another indian (look her up don’t let the name fool you), forced most likely by her parents to become a doctor that had zero guts to ever be a doctor. Shameful that this is a person that we call a doctor. She should have her license revoked and be given a desk job. Crying in the shower and worrying she missed a spot? SMH what a loser. She is just trying to get her fame being on every news outlet and interviewing she is just an actor that bought her degree. Shame on your DR JULIE JOHN.

    1. Scott says:

      She didn’t even go a medical school in the US. She had to go offshore to the Caribbean. Doesn’t surprise me.

      Windsor University School of Medicine is a private medical school located in Cayon, Saint Mary Cayon Parish, Saint Kitts and Nevis in the Caribbean. Windsor confers upon its graduates the Doctor of Medicine degree.

  3. Miguel says:

    boo hoo what a crock of sht!! more people die from Doctors malpractice!!

  4. shepherd says:

    overweight get sicker than thin. smokers die more. wash your hands fast and pray and you by grace will live today. Amen.

  5. John D says:

    How do these hysterical clowns get accepted into med school? Who would want that type of decision maker working on them?

    1. Ben says:

      The reason doctors are like this is because this is the type of bull they teach in medical schools these days – I should know, I am in medical school. Write an essay about how it made you feel. If you don’t then you get a poor mark. So I just make stuff up and say, oh it really affected me. In fact, it was so heart breaking that I had to seek support from the pretty girl in the class (whom I got to shag because she thought I was sentimental – I left that part out of my essay). So I guess it isn’t all bad.

      But seriously, this is what you have to do in medical school these days. Feelings. About everything from transgenders wearing a dress to the impact of seeing something frightening in the ICU (i.e., death) has on you. Welcome to the new medicine. Science, nope. Feelings, yes.

      Or maybe these are just crybabies.

  6. Xi's Disgraced Ancestor says:

    Private moments like this are understandable but public displays of it are maudlin and unprofessional. Doctors never used to caught up in toxic sentimentality like this and it’s not adaptive if you’re a doctor. Guess what? After the Winnie the Pooh flu, you will see other causes of death.

  7. Johnny Kay says:

    Those stories about overworked doctors, overflowing morgues, crowded hospitals, crowded ICUs, mass graves, and refrigerated trucks filled with “body bags” are contradicted by numerous videos of empty hospitals, empty waiting rooms, empty “testing centers”, and parked ambulances in the alleged “epicenters” of the pandemic.

    1. Johnny Kay says:

      Wake up, people — the coronavirus “pandemic” is a fraud, an invisible, all-purpose enemy to which the government can attribute any dangers it wants to frighten and control us.

      The international corporate elite that runs things behind the scenes has turned an illness no more dangerous than the common flu (and perhaps far less so) into a pretext for an enormous expansion of government power and an enormous transfer of resources — literally, trillions of dollars — from the citizens to the corporate elite.

      We are being lied to every step of the way — just look at all of the videos of empty hospitals, empty waiting rooms, empty “testing centers”, and parked ambulances in the alleged “epicenters” of the pandemic. . .

      There is no legitimacy to any of it. The masks, the “social distancing”, the “self-isolation”, the shutdowns, the lockdowns, the restrictions on assemblies and groups — none of that is to keep us safe, but all of it is to condition us to accept mandatory vaccination, more government control, more regimentation, and more handouts to the corporate elite.

      The coronavirus charade is no different from previous virus panics — SARS, MERS, Swine Flu, Zika — only now the people at the top think we are divided enough, stupid enough, and weak enough to submit to a massive acceleration of the ongoing transfer of power and wealth from us to them. Sadly, it appears that they are correct.

      Too many of us still believe — despite overwhelming historical and contemporary evidence to the contrary — that the government and the corporate media do not lie, especially about the big things. In reality, the government and the corporate media lie about everything — especially about the big things.

      1. littlebuddie says:

        Hummmmm….how dare you think ‘outside of the box’ is what many people will take away from your message but you’re talking fresher truth than the so-called brilliant minds who talk yap, have nothing to offer than repeated non-understanding of this mess and make this horrible place in time Our President’s ‘fault’. 😉

    2. Kels says:

      Come to my neck of the woods, Johnny, here on Long Island, right around the block from a major local hospital. There are two refrigerated trucks of bodies out back. The pastoral care staff goes out every day to say a prayer by them. The ICU has been doubled in size and finally, today, there are a few beds open. Not so last week, when patients were being sent to Javits. 1/4 of all people who have been admitted for Covid have died. More deaths in this one hospital than multiple states put together.

      So believe whatever you want about what’s going on, feel free to disregard social distancing and open everything up wherever you are in the country, but if you think this thing isn’t real, and you think that it’s all some sort of propaganda designed to allow for a government takeover…well, I hope you get to keep thinking that, but fact is if you open up, you’re going to get clobbered by this virus in ways that seem like a movie until you’re living with it.

      But where I am right now, we don’t have the luxury of pretending this isn’t real.


      1. Heinz Dommert says:

        Good job Jussie Smollett. I couldn’t say it better myself.

  8. Lance says:

    Hmmm ? Many in the medical profession now find themselves in a similar situation to the GI’s during the Viet Nam “conflict”. Stuck in a war that they want no part of, without the proper tools to accomplish their task, and there’s no way out until help arrives in the way of a vaccine. Expect to see some medical PTSD when this is over.

  9. Benjamin says:

    If she has COVID-19, why is she still working?

  10. LukeB says:

    the govt has panicked everyone because it knows it will get bigger with fear and economic destruction. its motivations are not curing the virus. its motives are all about power. when will ppl realize the govt is a runaway gravy train?

  11. Cindy Jones says:

    This is why female and beta male doctors are not as good as real toxic men doctors.

    1. Heinz Dommert says:

      I don’t know what you look like but I think I love you.

  12. Based Retard says:

    That’s their job. Don’t like it? Quit.

  13. Big Mama says:

    BS artists…most people DIE in Hospitals..get a grip or get out!!

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